some things are just GENETIC

Ever feel so helpless when your child is screaming that you just have to cry too? Yeah, been there. As recent as Sunday night.

Even after a week of Miralax, Phillips MoM, prunes, plum juice, pumpkin, graham crackers, etc......my little Duck was once again backed up. I finally had to resort to an enema. Not the first time I had to do so, but definitely the first time I cried.

It's so heart-breaking to know that you passed on the one thing to your child you'd never wish on anyone, let alone this sweet baby boy who can't tell you why he hurts or even that his belly doesn't feel good. Unfortunately for us, it's often too late for us to know what's wrong.

We spent 6 months on Miralax last year. Finally got him off it at Christmas. We had a good 6 months off it and then BAM. he goes three times in 2.5 weeks. NOT healthy.

So, I did the deed, cried while I made him sit on the toilet, and then praised him to high heaven while I held him after and he screamed. I'm fairly certain that potty-training is on hold for a while because I think the whole thing traumatized him. He doesn't even want to go near the potty right now. It's a bad-bad-bad place.

I spent 15 minutes on the phone with Mr. M from the pediatrician's office. He's our second favorite nurse (after Ms. S that is). He and Dr. G saw Duck last year when we had our first bout. We talked about the Miralax and adding Mineral Oil. Said popcorn and fig newtons are a good source as well. (Yeah, had to admit my 3 year old has been eating popcorn since he was just barely 2.......hey, at least I made it to 2.5 before he had a hot dog.) So, we're back on Miralax for a few weeks. Boy, the school will LOVE me for that one. Not only am I sending them a not-yet-pt'd 3 yo with a speech impairment, but he's also on a wacky poop schedule.

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How am I feeling? Decent today. Monday was awful. Haven't been sleeping well and I guess it took its toll. I came home from work at 11:30 and slept til nearly 4:00. I finally got a prescription for a sleep med and that's supposed to help with the nausea. Um, yeah, I was up at 1, 2, 2:30, 3, 3:45, 5, 5:30. NOT my idea of sleep.

I am having a bummer of a day in that I've decided to switch my OB. I've never really clicked with my current OB and when I was pg with Duck it didn't really matter. There was another OB in the practice who I saw right up til delivery. Then Dr. Sunshine delivered Duck. Damn. Then? Then the other OB left the practice. Damn again.

So, there have been things adding up for the last three years since I had Duck and last month's visit was basically it. I can't imagine that his practice is so HUGE that he can walk into an exam room and seriously ask "have we met?" when he's had his hands in places that even E can't AND he's half-reading my chart. Granted, it was three years ago, but it's not like I dropped off the face of the earth. I have been in the office for other things.

His bedside manner just plain sucks. And, you know what, I want that. I expect that in my OB/GYN.

Maybe it's just me. But I grew up with doctors that cared, that asked how your family was doing BY NAME, that really spent time with you. We have an AWESOME pediatrician and an AWESOME family doctor. The pedi spends lots of time with us, especially since Duck has delays and he wants to hear all the new and exciting things Duck is doing, as well as all of our concerns....right down to his cracked toenails. The family doctor......wow, totally amazing. She listens. And she's even managed to get E back on track medicine wise. I think it's because he thinks she's hot. Doesn't matter, my husband is down to 3 cigarettes a day and all because Dr. B got him to take Chantix.

Anyway, I'mm OB shopping at 11 weeks. I found one that does handle high-risk and will deliver at the hospital right by us. Double-bonus. The triple treat??? I was in Target last night and see this guy in scrubs. As I walk past him, I see his name on his scrubs. It's hte OB I really want to go to. I'm hoping it's a sign!

That's all for now.

The baby M&M is now about 2 inches long form crown to rump and weighs approximately 8 grams. (about the size of a large lime)

We'll let you know if baby is a plain or peanut M&M as soon as we find out.